Constantly being told that I'm "wrong" and how it affected me
I think one of the topmost toxic words that I hear... is "should"You "should " do this, you "should" do that.From behaviours to life decisions, I'm robbed of alot of liberty since young. To being able to be independent and grow to being able to walk my own path.In short, I'm surrounded by people who... felt that there are certain things that I should be doing to the best of my interest.But... what if that's not me? What if I'm unhappy doing that?What if I'm actually didn't want to walked the path of "should?"
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16:10
Drawing Orange Circles - A Reflection
I got struck by something I saw on Instagram; The Tiny Wisdom by Brian. This piece of work really resonated with me. From behaving different since young, being told that I'm weird as I am growing up, to even being told that this is not me and what I "should" be as I got older, this piece of work hits me in ways that I didn't expected to be hit (on a weekday morning).The voices echoes inside me for the rest of the day, where my brain started digging up memories to go through; cues the highlights of my different point in life, from postcard trading to solo traveling, earning money on my own terms, being high on main character energy. I once was on the tightrope of embracing myself and how I should be; until the society and people around me gave me that push... and fast forward to today, I'm a typical cog in the system, going about my everyday, keeping my head down... drawing blue squares.
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18:46
Life as a game and we can't stop playing
There's no pause, there's no hack, there's nothing we can go about it except the dailies and our quests. However the difference between life and the game? A game have it's perimeter much more well define, and we are rewarded; regardless... of our effort. So some succeed, some fail, and everything keeps on going. The world keeps turning, the cities never sleeps... and we can't stop playing.
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14:39
About my operation
I'd been thinking if this should be back posted or forward, but decided I shall keep the momentum of the weekly thing going. So this episode covers my first post op thoughts; I probably might have forgotten most of what was being thought or discussed, but mostly how it was way tougher than I thought.Having the most peg in a prolonged period, together with an unforeseen extension of surgery duration, I came back with my body like a piece of beaten up flesh. And there's even abit of... Hallucination; I supposed it was the low I thought I'd be in (then).
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26:11
2025... taking the first day to unpack
It's been so long... I'd say so so long; before I could really sit down and get to posting. The spiralling valley pre-surgery and the whole recovery period, before jumping onto the sprint wagon hoping to do more for work.But at what cost? So after everything, and my declining mental health, I decided to sit down, and really start unpacking... and queueing certain stuff that I should have, but didn't..And here's the first of many... and getting back on track of our (hopefully) weekly posting? It'll probably be a reminder for me to get back, to push myself to keep going.
Hello! You may know me as Rawrnie! A traveler writer, content creator, self proclaimed artist, an entrepreneur and a realtor residing in Singapore!
I love trying things, experimenting with different medium is my art. I love creating raw and unfiltered content, and I’m obsessed with one takes; hence this unscripted one take podcast is born!
Every Wed:
Rye off the Bat is a collective of unprocessed audio recordings that explores various subjects, from productive, self improvement to mental health
Every Sun:
Rye off React is a collab between Chilli & I reacting to diff situationships
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