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The Rainbow Connection welcomes back Bri Miller almost a year after her first recording. She was pregnant then, with her rainbow baby, Maverick. Her daughter, Caroline, was diagnosed in utero and passed away shortly after birth in 2023. This time, Bri and Kristin talk about the coping strategy nobody expects: reality TV, and how it carried her through hospital stays, the darkest months of grief, and the newborn trenches that followed.

We talk about:
Life one year into mothering her rainbow baby, Maverick
Watching TV in the hospital during Caroline's diagnosis (below deck, obviously)
Coming home the night Caroline died and turning on Netflix anyway
"Train," the code word Bri and her husband used to pause and grieve
Why reality TV felt safer than scripted shows (no surprise stillbirth plotlines on Vanderpump Rules)
Laughing again for the first time after loss
True crime, escapism, and why the most horrifying content is somehow the most relaxing
Finding unexpected comfort in the medical drama The Pit
Carrying grief into everyday motherhood, one Bravo scandal at a time
Healing doesn't have to look profound to count. Sometimes it just looks like turning on the TV.

Get to know Bri:
Bri Miller is mom to Caroline, born still in 2023, and Maverick, her rainbow baby. Since Caroline's death, Bri has focused on building community with other loss moms. She's now figuring out what's next, work, school, maybe growing her family again, all while staying present with Maverick and keeping Caroline close.

Instagram: @brihansen
Website: carolinecares.us

Connect with Kristin:
📍 Website: thedoulalife.ca
🌈 The Haven — Pregnancy After Loss Community Program: thedoulalife.ca/haven
🌸 Mother Like No Other — Loss Mom Community: thedoulalife.ca/mother
📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life

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Katie shares her experience of miscarriage, the emotional impact of early pregnancy loss, and the path that led her to becoming a mother to her two rainbow babies. Through her story, we explore what it means to navigate pregnancy after loss, to reconnect with the body, and to move through grief while still holding space for hope. Katie’s journey into breathwork and yoga nidra is deeply intertwined with her healing, and her work now supports women through fertility, pregnancy, postpartum, and motherhood after loss.

We talk about:
Experiencing miscarriage in a first pregnancy
The emotional and physical impact of pregnancy loss
Navigating grief while continuing to move forward
Pregnancy after loss and the complexity of holding fear and hope
Rebuilding trust in the body after miscarriage
The role of breathwork and nervous system support in healing
Motherhood after loss and what it looks like day-to-day
The identity shift that comes with loss and becoming a mother
Supporting other women through TTC, pregnancy, and postpartum after loss
This episode is a powerful reminder that grief and beauty can coexist — and that birth, even in loss, can absolutely be sacred.

Get to know Katie: 
Katie is a breathwork and yoga nidra facilitator based on Vancouver Island, supporting women through every stage of motherhood — from trying to conceive to postpartum. Her work is deeply rooted in her own lived experience with miscarriage and pregnancy after loss, and she is passionate about helping women reconnect with their bodies, regulate their nervous systems, and feel supported in the messy, complex realities of motherhood. She lives with her husband, their two rainbow babies, and their beloved fur baby.

Instagram: @othermindbreathwork
Website: Othermind.ca

Connect with Kristin:
📍 Website: thedoulalife.ca
🌈 The Haven — Pregnancy After Loss Community Program: thedoulalife.ca/haven
🌸 Mother Like No Other — Loss Mom Community: thedoulalife.ca/mother
📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life

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Nancy shares the story of her son Callum — a pregnancy that began with surprise and joy, and slowly unfolded into uncertainty after a CMV diagnosis. In this episode, she walks us through what it was like to navigate pregnancy loss, the fear of the unknown, and how her experience shaped the way she approached pregnancy after loss. She also shares about her earthside sons and what motherhood after loss looks like for her today.

We talk about:
Receiving a CMV diagnosis during pregnancy and what that meant
The emotional shift from joy to fear in pregnancy
Navigating the unknowns of pregnancy loss
Grieving an angel baby while continuing forward
The complexity of pregnancy after loss
Holding fear and hope at the same time
Motherhood after loss and raising earthside children
How loss changes your identity as a mother
Finding moments of grounding and connection again
This episode is a powerful reminder that grief and love live side by side — and that even after loss, there can still be space for hope.

Get to know Nancy:

Nancy is a mother of three, including her angel baby Callum and her two earthside sons, Declan and Landon. She lives in Oakville, Ontario with her husband Cody, and works as an elementary school teacher. Outside of work, she loves spending time outdoors with her boys, reading, gardening, and playing soccer — finding joy in the everyday moments of motherhood after loss.

Learn more about CMV: https://cmvcanada.com/what-is-cmv/#prevention

Connect with Kristin:

📍 Website: thedoulalife.ca
🌈 The Haven — Pregnancy After Loss Community Program: thedoulalife.ca/haven
🌸 Mother Like No Other — Loss Mom Community: thedoulalife.ca/mother
📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life

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Ummul Patrawala shares her journey through multiple pregnancy losses, including the stillbirth of her daughter Sakina at 38 weeks, and how those experiences shaped her understanding of the deep connection between trauma and the body. In this episode, we explore motherhood after loss, the physical and emotional imprint of grief, and how her rainbow baby helped her begin to rebuild trust, connection, and safety within herself. This conversation is a powerful reflection on healing after stillbirth, pregnancy after loss, and the evolving identity of motherhood in the after.

We talk about:
The story and meaning behind Ummul’s name and identity as “the mother of all mothers”
Navigating stillbirth and the loss of her daughter Sakina at 38 weeks
The physical impact of grief, including autoimmune conditions, IBS, and chronic pain
PTSD and the body’s response to unresolved trauma after pregnancy loss
Rebuilding trust in your body during pregnancy after loss
The emotional complexity of welcoming a rainbow baby
Motherhood after loss and holding both grief and hope at the same time
Supporting women through the invisible impact of trauma on the body
Learning to listen to your body instead of disconnecting from it
This episode is a powerful reminder that grief and beauty can coexist — and that birth, even in loss, can absolutely be sacred.

Get to know Ummul:
Ummul Patrawala is a mother to three boys and five angel babies, living in Mississauga, Ontario. After experiencing profound pregnancy loss, including the stillbirth of her daughter Sakina at 38 weeks, her path shifted in a deeply personal way. Today, she is a psychotherapist who supports women navigating the physical and emotional effects of trauma — including chronic pain, autoimmune conditions, and pelvic health challenges. Her work is rooted in helping women reconnect with their bodies, rebuild trust, and feel seen in experiences that are often overlooked.

Instagram: @ThriveHolisticCoaching
Website: www.hopetherapyjourney.com

Connect with Kristin:
📍 Website: thedoulalife.ca
🌈 The Haven — Pregnancy After Loss Community Program: thedoulalife.ca/haven
🌸 Mother Like No Other — Loss Mom Community: thedoulalife.ca/mother
📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life

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Sara Rian, a poet, therapist, and mother based in Metro Detroit, joins me to share her story of losing her mother to suicide — and the profound way that loss shaped her understanding of grief, love, and connection. In this episode, we explore how grief lives not just in our minds, but in our bodies, and how experiences of loss can impact intimacy, identity, and the way we move through motherhood and healing.

This is a conversation about what it means to live after loss — to carry it, to feel it, and to slowly find your way back to yourself.

We talk about:
Navigating grief after losing a parent to suicide
How grief lives in the body and impacts daily life
The connection between grief and intimacy
Feeling disconnected from your body after loss
The role of poetry and expression in healing
Holding both love and grief at the same time
Identity shifts after profound loss
The unspoken parts of healing and moving forward
This episode is a powerful reminder that grief and love can coexist. And that even in the aftermath of loss, there is space for connection, healing, and coming home to yourself.

Get to know Sara Rian:

Sara Rian is a poet, self-published author, licensed therapist, mother, and wife living in Metro Detroit. Her journey with grief began after the loss of her mother to suicide in 2018 — a loss that continues to shape both her personal life and her work. Through her writing, Sara creates space for others to feel seen in their grief, reminding them that they are not alone in their love or their loss. As both a mental health professional and a grieving daughter, she brings a deeply compassionate and honest voice to the conversations we often struggle to have.

Instagram: @sara_rian_books
Website: www.sararianbooks.com

Connect with Kristin:

📍 Website: thedoulalife.ca
🌈 The Haven — Pregnancy After Loss Community Program: thedoulalife.ca/haven
🌸 Mother Like No Other — Loss Mom Community: thedoulalife.ca/mother
📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life

If you enjoyed this episode, please don’t forget to subscribe, rate, and review — it helps get these stories and resources into the hands of the women who need them most. And please share it with someone who could use this kind of support. Your support means so much.